9: Completion. Spirituality. Humanitarianism. Conflict.
1: beginning. rebirth. God. drive. independence.
Since this year is coming to an end, I think it’s only appropriate that I reflect a bit. I can wait until December, but I’d rather not (besides, I can’t sleep anyway). Now, I believe in divination and I have been reading a lot on it. I started reading about numerology and did my numbers. I checked the number of my life and this is a 9 year for me. So many things have happened. I have found myself and lost myself only to find myself again. Pretty much, I’ve been everywhere. But I’m starting to center. Next year is 1 which is beginnings and rebirth. I have backtracked the numbers to times and my life and I must say…THEY DO NOT LIE!
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Song: ‘Gravity’ by John Mayer
Mood: Down & stressed.
Quote: “I know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing. Through every dark night, there’s a bright day after that. So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep ya head up…. and handle it.” — Tupac Shakur
Just food for thought. I have 4 videos I need to edit & upload. If you’re still subscribed or just reading, thanks. 🙂 You are most definitely appreciated. =]
I know…another post in just 3 days? Well, I decided to do it because I’m up with nothing better to do. LOL. I’m slowly going through Twitter withdrawal but in the end it’ll be all worth it. I just miss some of the people I talked to on there. =[ Anywhosit, I’m raring to go and I am again starting on this healthier life kick. I keep false starting because I look for outside motivations and I say it’s for health reasons yet at the same time I don’t care enough because everyone around me just says ‘Yeah ok.’ ‘You won’t last!’ ‘Be real.’ when I’m serious about this. My best friend noticed I put on some pounds and I did as well. I do not like it one bit. I’m going to do my damndest at being the me I know I am. I depend on people too much for approval or recognition and it shouldn’t be like that. I should do my own thing whether the world is watching or not. My health and overall well-being should be my inspiration.
So lately I have been playing around on Photoshop. I know I need to test out all of the Adobe products (I might use Premiere for my next video to edit and add some cool things). I actually enjoy my major and being able to express my creativity through a media outlet. I want to start an e-zine, but I don’t know what to make it about, the frequency in which it will come out, will it be free, etc. I think I have the potential to do so. I want to start advertising my work and actually trying to get paid for the things that I do. I like it. So whenever I finish my layout for this blog, I will try to make blogs for others for free. I don’t mind it at first. =D
But I just really want to work on my skills and get them down pat. Tell me what you think about this picture. It’s a stillshot from Disney’s The Princess and The Frog. I will show the original and the finished. Gimme feedback. =D Continue reading
I did a video on identity this morning and I think that it’s something important to mention:
Check out my first vlog. yikes. Please give me feedback. =]
Loss is a hard thing for anyone to deal with and it just hurts when it happens to you. A while back, I wrote about my best friend’s grandfather passing and mine passed on the 18th of this month. I was int he room with him and I was scared. It’s been a little over 24 hours and the image of his lifeless body still haunts me. Anyone who knows me can attest to the fact that my grandfather meant a little more than everything to me. He was my rock. He practically was my father and to see someone who used to e strong just taken away from kills you a little bit. I cry from time to time and I don’t even want to go to the funeral. But I think I agree with my mom when she says I need closure. To get the last image out of my mind. It’s so hurtful that the last time I saw my grandfather he had a dazed look, closed his eyes and left. Continue reading